Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Update
I will leave on a high note, Angela turned two months old yesterday on my cousin Tyrel's birthday. I hope he enjoyed his birthday a bit, even if he is in Basic, as I know Angela smiled and laughed for a good majority of the day...what fun we had playing. She is getting so big!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Dickinson Trip
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Home Sweet Home
This farm home is $95,000, it's on 40 acres of land and it has a really nice Quonset for Tyler to use as a large garage. The garage on the land needs to be demolished and there are grain bins that are on the land that we don't get with the purchase but we have to put an egress and ingress to get to it. The inside has been updated a little bit but not much and there is still a ton of work to be done. This really would be a great home if we only wanted one kid 'cause it only has two working bedrooms. The other room is in the basement and we would have to finish the basement and put in egress windows before we could even think about using it. Still it would make a good home, we would just have to work REALLY hard and put A LOT of money into making it our perfect home.
I really like the home in town because I think it's a good buy for the amount we can afford and I think it would be a good home to raise a family in.This home has a nice big yard for Angela to play in that wouldn't need a lot of replanting. It has a good two stall garage for our vehicles and spot next to the garage for Tyler's impala plus an alley in the back for more room to park. The inside is completely remodeled and there are more bedrooms than we have furniture to fill. It's $89,000 with more square footage than the farm home and we wouldn't have to buy any appliances other than a washer and dryer. It's across the street from the school which is a perk. The down falls to this is that it doesn't have the big acres of land outside of town that we wanted, it might only have one bath(can't figure out if it's a type-o or not from the pictures), and it's not that far from the Women's prison in New England. Both homes have their high and low points, and Tyler and I can completely understand why each other likes the other house. We are looking at a bunch of others in Richardton and one in Dickinson. Our viewing on looking at homes in the smaller towns is that it may be more difficult to sell in later years so we want one in a smaller town that we can live in for years, maybe never move out of. If we end up living in Dickinson, we would only live there for a few years until we find something we can't live without in a smaller surrounding town.
I am so excited to go this weekend and possibly get things going, but I don't want to get my hopes up. We have a couple of loans out that we are in the process of getting rid of so that the approval for the home can go smoother. One of them however is a co-signed loan on a vehicle where the person is constantly late on payments. We've been struggling to get hold of them but they won't answer our phone calls and they have to be the one to file for a credit check with the bank to re-finance the loan and get it on their own. I just think they are too lazy to do such a think and it's making me really upset.
I am praying that everything will work itself out in time for us to hopefully move into a place we can call our own by October 1st. I am praying and I hope you will pray for us to that thinks work out the way we would like.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Motherhood
Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Boo Boos and Bandaids
When we got there we had to sit in the waiting room for at least fifteen minutes, maybe even twenty. Then after entering the room, we were instructed to strip her down to her diaper so she could be weighed and measured. When you strip a baby naked, you expect them to be in a somewhat warm room....NOT HERE!! It was freezing, I am never cold and I was cold so I can only imagine how Angela was sitting in that room naked for so long. Then we had to wait for the Doctor to come in, but she wanted Angela naked for the examining so we couldn't get her dressed while we were waiting for another ten minutes. After she came in, the Doctor checked her lungs and heart, her eyes, her nose, her ears and then her mouth. It was at that point that Dr. Jones-Dees told me that Angela has thrush. THRUSH!!!! I can't believe that my little girl has the fungus that I told myself she would never get. But not only does she have it in her mouth, I have it on my boobs and after every feeding we have to give her medicine and we have to wash her Nuk everytime it leaves her mouth. That's quite a feet when you have an infant that can't exactly keep the tightest hold on her beloved Nuk.
After the Dr. Jones-Dees left, the nurse came in and gave her shots to her, and I have never heard a cry that loud and that horrifying. And now that we are home, the hardest part has hit...she is in pain because of the shots in her legs, she's struggling to eat because of the Thrush, she just wants to be comforted but it's almost always unsuccessful, and she's frustrated with all the new medicines that she has to be given. I have a feeling that these next few days are going to be the hardest I've ever had.
The facts from the hospitals' standings however is that she weighs 12 pounds 5 ounces, is 23" in length, and her head circumference is 15.25". A little different then what we received at WIC, but they are close enough.
Tee it Up
I'm amazed at how big her eyes are.
Life is so good.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Liquid Gold
While your getting your checks, if you would like them to they will weigh and measure your child so that you can see that they are getting sufficient nutrition. Since I am impatient and didn't want to wait until Friday when Angela has her two month appointment, I asked to have her measured and weighed. OH....MY...GOSH. I knew that breast milk was good, but I didn't know that Angela would be in the 90% for height the 80% for weight and the 60% for head circumference because of it. She measured 23.5" for height, 12 pounds 1 oz, and her head was 15 1/4".
I am sometimes indifferent about these breastfeeding get together because they all seem a little too happy to be breastfeeding. We always start off talking about why we love to breastfeed and I sometimes find it hard to find an answer to that. I certainly enjoy being the only one to feed her sometimes ('cause it means that when someone else is holding her, I get her back for that little while) but then I want Tyler to be more involved so that he feels like he is helping out adequately. I love the fact that it's free and I don't have to pay for it....oh wait, but I have to buy nursing shirts and bra's so the money goes there instead. I like the bonding time I get with her, other than the chapped nipples that I receive and the nail marks I have from her digging into my boobs. The enhanced breast size is a perk, other than the fact that I leak milk after a good let down and I'm struggling to fit into all my old clothes. I have so many perks to breastfeeding but at the same time there are so many struggles for me that don't seem to cross the minds of these other moms. Sometimes I wonder if since I'm not that fond of breastfeeding makes me a bad mom.
As is this.
This one was me...what a difference huh?
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Wash..Dry..Fold..Put away
I have been trying to get the laundry done so that I can pick up the house a little bit and possibly clean the bathrooms and vacuum before Grandma Micki comes to visit on Thursday. I am getting super excited for her to come, it's already been too long since she has seen our little gem. O.K. it really has not been that long since she's seen Angela but it sure seems like it with how much Angela's been growing. Today while doing laundry I compiled the first box of clothes that Angela's outgrown. I had fun putting different outfits on Angela to see if they fit, but Angela most certainly didn't like it.
The dryer has finished and I have many more loads to do before Angela wakes up to feed again...woops too late. Maybe I'll get the laundry done in the wee hours that I am awake tonight.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Blue Bell
After the ceremony we enjoyed a nice meal catered by Space Aliens. It was here during the reception dinner that our friend Nichole held her first baby. During my baby shower here in Fargo, Nichole wrote me a piece of advice that said when I return to Williston, I can drop Angela off if we want to go out without the baby...that was after she admitted that she never touched a baby because she was scared she would break it. So this was a huge triumph for Nichole.I was very impressed as the Bride even took time out of her reception to sit down and cuddle with out little Blue Bell. I had to make sure to put a burp cloth on her to make sure she didn't receive a nice stain on her beautiful dress...but she was even willing to bottle feed her for a little while. That was until she was pulled away for the cake cutting. I don't think I have ever seen a bride do something like that, so I felt very blessed. It is a gorgeous Sunday, with the temperature hoovering around 73 degrees and the sun hiding behind the clouds. So our little family will be spending the rest of the day enjoying the weather, maybe by going for a walk or if we feel up to it, then we will go to the driving range again. Who knows what today will bring.
Friday, August 8, 2008
Sand Man
I think the main reason that I get frustrated is because at six weeks old, she is struggling to sleep on her back. And I can't say that I am not at fault because I know that when late night feedings come around and I am falling asleep, as soon as she is ready to go back to sleep I lay her on my chest, kick back and we're both off into la-la land. However, I think I may have found the culprit yesterday.
We received a gift of pajamas that had the feet on them that were incredibly adorable and I couldn't resist putting her in them when it was a tad chilly yesterday. So after her morning bath, I put her in her jammies and laid her on her back, and she slept for three hours. She did that successfully throughout the day..with Mom making sure she was in warmer clothes. Then last night, we had one of the best nights that we have had since she was born. We got home from watching the opening ceremonies at Mike and Angie's at about 11:30 and after a quick change and feeding, we laid her on her back in the pack 'n play we have in our room. She slept there until 2:30 when she woke for a change and feeding. I made sure not to drift off to sleep and laid her back down in her pack 'n play where she again slept until 6:00. Again after a feeding she laid down and we woke this morning at 9. After six weeks of being home, I got to sleep a whole night in my bed with my husband and IT WAS AWESOME!!!!
I had always just figured that since she was so warm to the touch, that a single onesie would keep her at a sufficient temperature. But I am coming to the conclusion that the reason she wanted to just snuggle with us was because she was a tad chilled and needed the heat from our bodies to keep her warm. What can I say, we are new at this and are learning with time. But I don't think I am going to get my hopes up too high, I don't want to jinx myself.
This past week my favorite photographer stopped by on Wednesday for a photo session. It was so good to chat with her and get pictures of our doll baby and the family as a whole. To top it all off, Shawna was able to instruct me on the proper use of an older camera that I was given by my mother. She taught me things that I had no clue the camera was able to do (things I thought you could only do with photo software). I just hope that I am able to remember her pointers when I go to take a few snap shots.
Early last week sometime Tyler received a profit sharing bonus check that wasn't much but it was enough to splurge a little on something just for us. Tyler decided that he wanted to purchase a set of good golf clubs for the two of us so that we can go out golfing as a family. After the clubs arrived on Wednesday, our anticipation grew and we really wanted to go out and swing them to see how they felt. Especially since this would be the first time I would swing a golf club other than at putt-putt. So yesterday we ventured out to the driving range (I called it the shooting range to a few people by accident) and while I breastfed on the grass, Tyler hit a bucket of balls and when it came around to being my turn to hit, the rain that was predicted for the day decided to show up. So I turned in my bucket of balls for tokens that we used today. I have to admit that I do enjoy it, when I connect with the ball. I am in need of some lessons however because my stance and swing are very armature.
I should get going as we have a wedding to attend to tonight and I still need to do our little girl's laundry. I leave you with pictures that I have taken from this week. And I can't believe how big our girl is getting...she is holding her head up fairly well by herself and even sitting up on the couch by herself ( I think it helps that the cushions hug her in place). Enjoy.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Nuk...lifesaver
Tyler's brother Tobi had the same thing going on with Amiah and when they went to their doctor, they were instructed to give her half a teaspoon of Mylanta to calm her tummy. We figured it couldn't hurt but the half a teaspoon looked like way to much for us so we cut that in half. We gave some to her for a little over a day...then that's when I decided that since she seemed to puke it up after words and she was still fussy, that I would wait and see what Dr. Jones-Dees thinks. The one thing I know that works is that every once in a while, she takes her Nuk pretty well, which gives me a little peace of mind. I was going crazy this week, not being able to shower/brush my teeth/use the bathroom in peace and also all of the crying that was intertwined in those activities. Tyler came home early from work on Friday to help out and he took care of her for a few hours while I got cleaned up, and did some cleaning around the house. It's amazing what two hours away from her, still in the same house, but doing something other than taking care of baby makes me feel better. Another way of brightening my day was a beautiful bouquet of flowers that my mother sent to me. She knows how to warm a room even when she's not here.We had to reschedule the photo session with Shawna because of some overlapping, but now we are getting our pictures taken on Wednesday. I am so excited, and that extra day gives me more time to get some cleaning done. We started packing this weekend and wow did we get far. There is still a great deal to pack, but we can hold off packing all that for a while as we still may need it. There is a great big pile of boxes in our garage now, so I am having to fight the rest of the tenants of the apartment building for parking spaces. Besides the packing and cleaning, I was also able to get out to watch Tyler play roller hockey on Thursday. It was nice to get out of the house for a little while, as I got to meet up with our friend Zach for a while, as he was passing through the FM area. I got to visit with my friend Joni for a little bit which is nice 'cause I only get to see her when we both go watch our hubbies play roller hockey. And little miss Angela got to meet Eva and Larry Carlsted, an unexpected but delightful experience. over the toys that I don't think she really understood, Tyler enjoyed his first showing of And today as Tyler and I unload the 90 lbs of groceries that we purchased, we watched Angela enjoy her Play mat that Nancy and the girls gave her. While we enjoyed her oohing and ahhingPocahontas, a movie that I don't think he greatly enjoyed. Anyways, we are relaxing the rest of the day, taking as many naps as possible so that I can continue to get through the nights with Angela.